The Start of the Experiment

This week I've started an experiment on my life. I've been stuck for a few years now. Well, probably around seven years. It's been that long since I discovered that the world I thought that I lived in is not the actual world at all. That sounds like a bit of Matrix-like mumbo jumbo, but Matrix is an apt analogy in this case. No, I don't believe I'm hooked into a neural computer and this life is an illusion (well, let's hope not), but there's some 'spooky action at a distance' (Einstein's words, not mine), non-local, synchronistic strangeness to the world that involves private thoughts inside your head and 'material' things in the outside, 'objective' world. One of the problems with this is that even though a large body of scientific material written by lots of exceptionally smart people since approximately 1928 under the general banner 'quantum physics' points to the fact that human consciousness is entangled with the the outcome of experiments at the sub-atomic level, once you start broaching the subject with people you, well, how should I put this delicately: you start to sound crazy. And that's not because you are crazy in a clinical, get-me-to-the-chez-long type of way, but simply because it's not the current accepted paradigm for the way the world works. So in many ways you come across as a person in a pre-Renaissance world who's trying to convince everyone that the world is not flat, or a Copernican who thinks that the Earth is revolving around the sun whilst everyone else thinks the complete opposite.

The reason I'm stuck is that in the back of my mind (and you have to have some quite incredible experiences to convince your rational mind that this is actually happening) I know that this mind-connected-to-external-world scenario exists, but I have no control over it. Things happen at random, seemingly without my input. So, in order to get out of my stuckness, I went looking for books written by other people - the sorts of things that would help me do something about this, because surely you can do something with something as amazing as this? Surely if the world out there is somehow connected to the world in here, then you should be able to enact control of some sort.

So, after starting to think about this, I quickly came across +Pam Grout 's book, E-Squared and read it in a matter of hours. That led me to Manifesting by Alexander Janzer  and another one I'm currently reading called Quantum Physicists Do Not Fail by Greg Kuhn.

Each of these is offering some very helpful advice. So I've put this advice into action. I'm starting to think about these things. So that's what this blog is about. It's going to be a diary of an experiment: an experiment on my life.